Head fuck April 4, 2008Posted by Aella in Bahrain, Culture, Life, Manama.
I don’t know what it is about me but lately I feel that people (are men classified as people?) ehm well one minute they love me and I am the the most amazing person in the whole world and the next minute I am the worst person in the whole world. Quite frankly it messes you up even if it shouldn’t. I know some of you that have addressed me in this way are reading this but I really do not wish to discuss it. I merely want to express my thoughts on this.
During the last month I have been accused of being a liar, totally without manners, crazy ( I can agree on that one), evil, mean to people, heartless, cold aaaaand the list goes on. Oh and apparently I am so bad I should be locked up for good for ever and ever…. I know I have changed during the last few years and my decision to be and stay single for now puzzles and annoys people (men again). It is like they can’t accept that a woman wants to be single. I must be dating someone secretly right? And when I say I don’t then I am a liar. When I turn someone down for a date I am cold or heartless. Sigh. Men these days remind me more of the way people perceive women more than anything.
How is it that I can be considered to be such a beautiful person, funny, amazing, lovely, great to be with, intelligent, kind, caring, loving aaaaand once again the list goes on… only to be the total opposite in an instant? I am starting to wonder whether I am the female Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.