August Augusti Augustine August 5, 2007Posted by Aella in Al Khobar, Bahrain, Beirut, Culture, Karlskrona, Lebanon, Saudi Arabia, Saudi culture, Sweden.
A wave of anxiety swept over me as I realised the other day that I have less than 2 weeks left here. Time has passed so fast. I am happy to move to Bahrain from Saudi without a doubt but I still feel a little uneasy to go back. Kind of lost.
Since 2003 I have moved from Sweden to Cyprus (you God forsaken island!) from Cyprus to Lebanon ( how I miss you) and from Lebanon to Saudi and now to Bahrain. I feel tired and old. Sick of packing and unpacking. A friend of mine here recently wrote me an email saying Oh we must meet, I so want to hear what you’re up to. You live such an exciting life… sigh…I don’t know what to reply to that kind of a comment. I am happy to have done all that I have but I still feel tired of it all. And no it isn’t exciting as such (what a miserable fuck I am).
Anyway, it has been a bloody depressing years starting with us leaving Beirut thinking we would come back a month later. Thanks to all the the cuties involved in last years war we didn’t of course but anyway…. I’m sick of feeling down and I hope and wish that the coming year will bring a lot of joy. I will make sure of that as a matter of fact. I am so confident living in Bahrain will be better than living in Saudi (look at me being sooo sure).